they hold you--
You leave bits of yourself
fluttering on the fences,
little rags and shreds
of your very life."
--Katherine Mansfield
(I was invited back to the church I had served six years from 1969-1975. I could not attend that special day because of a conflict. If you had driven by that church you wouldn't think much about it. It was tiny and non-descript. No big steeple...no huge educational facility. Just a little church by the road in a subdivision. Yet--something happened there in that tiny space in those turbulent years that I will keep with me until the finish line. These are the words I sent to the church to be read that special weekend.)
I remember a tiny place with a slanted roof and folding
chairs. I remember a concrete floor—no carpet. I remember student Frank Brown,
now a distinguished professor, playing the piano. I remember how our first
secretary had her desk in our dusty darkened hall. We had little space. I
remember my office in a Sunday School classroom right off the sanctuary.
I remember Sunday
School classes that had to meet in homes. I also remember a choir, unrobed
singing gorgeous music Sunday after Sunday. I remember those Sundays when I was
like a Kentucky racehorse in the stall—I couldn’t wait for my time to preach.
They listened—and they stretched me—and made me work sometimes harder than I
wanted.
I remember women
Deacons and how many churches thought us strange. I remember the war years when
the kids straggled in, some barefoot, protesting the draft and the war. I
remember building our educational building with incredible faith and little
money.
I remember so many:
Jim and Betty Bergman, Edwina Snyder and Bob, Bill Vessels and Stuart Sharp. I
remember Tom Corts and Marla and Dan and Barbara and Sandy and Everett. I
remember George Redding and dear Carolyn. I remember the Roses and the Davilas
and the Ellers and Jenny Parker and Hallie Hymer, washing his car next door
every single Saturday. I remember John and Darlene Drake and the Heisers and
Evelyn Aulick and Martha and Dick Scudder and Lindsay and Judy and Gwen and Joe
and Shirley. I remember Judith and Wallace and Dr. Mills and dear Millie and
Mrs. W.B. Jones who never joined but came Sunday after Sunday. I remember Flem
Smith sitting as close to the girls as he could get.
I remember hippie weddings at the horse farms and all those
students that passed through on the way. I wish I could name them all—but I do
not have the time or the space. I
remember that painting that used to hang in the back of the sanctuary, which
told of a time when the church reached out to a family who had lost a child. And
how that bereft father painted that picture as his gift of thanks for what the
church had done. If you squinted your eyes embedded in that painting was Jesus
with his arms outstretched on a cross. I remember how we experimented on
Sundays in worship—sometimes God walked down the aisle and touched us all. Some
Sundays our experiments flopped and God stayed home.
I remember those
weekends when we opened our doors to the whole town and showed movies and
served popcorn because we had no theatre. I remember how good I felt knowing
that my two children did not have the finest educational facilities but they
learned what church was all about. All kinds of people, mostly accepting and
loving and a gospel that had no limits—well, not many anyway. I called it my
first Camelot and even today my heart swells with gladness and pride for what
we did in that little place with folding chairs and a concrete floor on Sunday
mornings.
*I’ve
left a lot of people out of this list not because they were not important but
because my memory, unfortunately has faded since 1975. But for all those who
slipped away into the mystery and to us all I leave the old Roman Catholic
Prayer for the Dead: “Into paradise may the angels lead them; at their
coming may the martyrs take them up into eternal rest and may the chorus of angels
lead them (and us all) to that holy city and the place of perpetual light.”
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